...; Forums I Love❤

Just a quick little post from me today. I have recently started up a new Forum Its only lifee. I hope you guys take a look and maybe come join me. As mentioned in a previous blog, i belong to another forum about depression and anxiety, check that one out as well.

Also, as you know, im a BIG backstreet boys fan, and have joined a great place for them as well. Be sure to check that out as well The Dark Side :) hope to see you guys there.

P.s. Today is Nick Carter's birthday, i hope him nothing but the best today, love love love him to bits. <3

...; i'm sad❤

Hey everyone. :( not the best few days for me. I've been feeling so down and low. Its hard to get up out of bed again. I keep saying i don't know why, but deep down i really do and i just don't want to say it because i'm embarrassed. I was doing to so good, then he came back in my life, and broke my heart again for the second time, i know i'm not perfect, but he makes me feel like i am the worst person he has ever met. I'm angry at myself for saying yes to him visiting last time, everyone warned me, i feel like a complete idiot and a waste of a human being. I thought i would be able to get back on my feet again, but i am struggling. All i do is work, i hate being alone, my thoughts just run .I haven't been sleeping right, my heart just races and that terrible heaviness is back in my chest.

Feels good to say write it down and get it out. Tomorrow is a new day. I hope i am in a better mood.
Goodnight all!

xoxo ღ tffie.

...; hard Day ❤

Im not really sure why, but today seems to be an off day. Feeling very anxious. Its my day off, maybe i just don't want to be alone right now. It gives me to much time to over think things. All i want to do is sleep the day away, but the minute i lay down, i get a pain in my chest, the anxiety is just to much. blah!! I'm rambling.

Maybe i'll go for a walk, turn some Backstreet Boys on and try to make it through the day.
Click Me!

xoxo ღ tffie.

...; A Reason To Smile ❤

Good afternoon everyone! So today i realized that i am all caught up on my bills, finally. Since my break up i fell behind a lot. It was causing me a ton of stress, as many of you can understand. Makes me sleep better at night :)

Another reason to smile today is that my audit with my boss at work went well. I have a lot of work to do, but it went way better than i thought it would go. I actually thought i was going to be fired. phew! thank goodness i wasn't.

Anywho! that's pretty much it for me today. Off i go to work. I hope you are all doing well, and i hope you all have something to smile about.

xoxo ღ tffie.

12 Year Old Lifer

wow!!! I never get used to seeing such young kids doing these things. Interesting story though. I recommend it!

Watch Video Here !!

...; Dealing With Depression❤

I don't think many people will see this, but i'm going to rant on anyways! I have come across an amazing lil chat forum. If you or someone you know is suffering from mental illness, please go check this out. Suzi is the sweetest and kindest person you could ever imagine. Its a great place for people who fully understand what you are going through, because they also deal with the same issues on a daily basis.

If you have some free time, please go ahead and join up, or just read some of the posts :) you won't be sorry. Dealing With Depression

xoxo ღ tffie.

Wow!! I'm Back

Well, hello there Blogger. I havn't been on here since 2010, thats nuts. Recently i have been going through one of the hardest things this far in my life. My depression and anxiety is at an all time high right now. I try to do what i can to keep my sanity, lately nothing has been working. I almost feel its just going to keep getting worse and worse, like there is no hope for happiness ever. Blah!! I could go on forever i bet. I plan to start blogging more, maybe letting it all out will give me some peace. Here we go.